December 31st, 2014

Today is the last in this year..
Many things change. Sudah banyak yang terjadi selama satu tahun ini. This year is full of His blessing. God make everything more than i can expect. God really thankful for You have given to me. ^^

Huaa \\('o')//
Yup!!Berkat-Nya dalam tahun ini really really really really really  wonderful. Penyertaan-Nya sangat sempurna.
God, YOU are so awesome.

if i resume my days since January 1st, 2014, how great is our God.
January 1st, '14
I had my new year eve in my hometown. There were me, mom, dad, and Rafael. My sister, Ruth, didn't come home. :(
But, we were grateful that she was fine. Lain kali pulang la dek.. Ibadah sederhana, hanya kami berempat. Mengucap syukur untuk berkat Tuhan selama tahun 2013 dan berdoa untuk penyertaan Tuhan dalam tahun 2014 ini
Always miss time like that.

Dan, ga terasa hari ini sudah tangga 31 Desember 2014.
The last day in this year.
And, here i am, in the last day of 2014.
Dan menyadari penyertaan-Nya yang sangat sempurna. Mengucap syukur untuk semuanya. Mengucap syukur untuk keluarga, studi, pekerjaan, semuanya deh ga bisa diucapkan satu satu. God give more than we can imagine.. Yupiiee!!!!!

Thank God..
Tahun ini keluarga masih sehat-sehat. Gok pasu-pasu ma  di keluarga nami. Amin.
Tahun ini resmi mendapat Bachelor Degree. If i rememberer again, it was kinda impossible. But, everything is possible with Him. God, strengthen me to be blessing.
Job.. terima kasih Tuhan untuk perkerjaan saat ini. Ampuni anakMu yang kurang bersyukur ini. But, i believe You will make everything perfect in Your time.
Teman-teman..terima kasih buat teman-teman Bapa. Woow!! We will have another adventure ahead. Kuatkan semua anak-anakMu ini untuk menjadi Your agent in this world.
Him.. terima kasih buat dia yang telah hadir, Bapa. Hope we will another wonderful days ahead next years. Amin.. Strengthen us to be salt and light whenever and wherever we are. Jadi ingat NaCl dan H20 (NaOH dan HCl)..hahahha
January, February, March, April, May, June, July, August, September, October, November, Desember.
Every month have each story.
And, God always lead ^^

2015 sudah di depan mata.
Banyak berkat Tuhan tersedia. ^^
I must be tough, cause i have awesome God.
God bless every step ahead..

Bogoshipo December 26

When i miss you, and i can't say it..
God, please tell him that i do miss him..
Bogoshipo..

another thought in this Tuesday

Tuesday..

Wake up in this morning. Thank God for this new day.

Apapun yang terjadi hari ini, God has reason. Strengthen me, GOD.

Get in the train every day. And, in this few days, i got train to Jakarta Kota. Every time i pass the station with "the biggest gravity", i almost get off in that station. Hahahah... Such as a foolish girl..

Huaaahahah.. just can only see that hospital, and i can't get down from the train.

Yesterday, December 15th, it's been a month since i haven't seen him. 

Bogoshipo.. -_-

Last Saturday..

I really really wanna see him. Sempat berharap bisa nonton bareng. It really hurts me, not when he said he couldn't but when i remembered that i'm nothing. I don't have right to say anything. Sempat pergi ke hospital itu sebelum acara Natal.. And, i can't meet him in that close distance. I really wanna say to him, "Let's meet up.." But, i can't.

God, please keep him..

waiting for You

"tetapi orang-orang yang menanti-nantikan TUHAN mendapat kekuatan baru: mereka seumpama rajawali yang naik terbang dengan kekuatan sayapnya; mereka berlari dan tidak menjadi lesu, mereka berjalan dan tidak menjadi lelah." Yesaya 40:31

December 6th, '09
It's been five years.
Evaluasi pribadi. Sudah bagaimana pertumbuhan iman selama lima tahun ini?

Terima kasih Tuhan untuk segalanya..
Sai totap ajari ahu mandalani hagoluhan on, Tuhan..

one day

December 3
One day in my life..
I never expect it would change my life..
One thing for sure, i'm realy grateful..
Really thankful for He has done..
Thank God for you..

Last Sunday in November

Today is the last Sunday in November this year.. Woooww!! It is gonna be December tomorrow.
So many things happened this month. God, i'm really grateful for everything You have done in my life.

Thank you for the this temporary job. I just don't understand, but You are really awesome in Your plan.
I have ever said that i like mining sector, and You just made me in one. I like operation management, supply chain, etc.  You let me learn them in this job.
Thank you God. Please strengthen me. I surrender. Completely..

Remind me about two weeks ago. Last Saturday. I will always wait for Your plan. And, i can only pray. And, prepare my self for your plan. And, please keep him always.

December, welcome..
God, please bless everything a month ahead..
I believe, it will be wonderful month. Last month in this year..

can only whisper your name

I miss my NaOH..
Can only whisper your name to Him..

whisper your name

It's been a week, since that day..
I miss you.. Hope, God tell you.. while i can only whisper your name in my pray..

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November 16th, 2014

It’s Sunday.. How wonderful is this day, reminds me how He always care every detail of my life.. Hard to believe, i went to the Sunday service at 5.30 a.m. Actually, i didn’t get much sleep. I just thought for some things, too much thinking i think. 

But, i really thankful for His word today.

Zefanya 1:7 

“Berdiam dirilah di hadapan Tuhan ALLAH! Sebab hari TUHAN sudah dekat. Sungguh TUHAN telah menyediakan perjamuan korban dan telah menguduskan para undangan-Nya.” 

The Sunday service was about eschatology. Wait for God’s time, and we must be faithfull until the end. 

Even, my daddy sent this in his message:

Mazmur  27:14

“Nantikanlah TUHAN! Kuatkanlah dan teguhkanlah hatimu! Ya, nantikanlah TUHAN!”

Not coincidence. Remind me just to wait in God and stay in faithful.

It was March 16th, 2014. After we had Sunday service, we went to Balairung.  Actually, i didn’t remember too much for what he had said. What i remember is all about how hard the life as a doctor, the girls that he liked, so on. He also said “Woman’s heart is like autumn”. He talked about “freedom”. What?? He said i can choose to wait and whatever.

Arghh, actually at the time my stress came out and i had suddenly headache.  

He is the first one, who says that he wanted to be serious in to this relationship. God, seriously this man.. Really, i wanted to cry at that time. The moment when he said “Aku mendoakanmu..” Oh man... Betapa bersyukurnya aku saat ada anak-Nya mengasihi aku. Honestly, no one never confess to me like him (ya lah, ga pernah ada yang nembak gua hahahaha). Visi yang sama di mana hubungan “pacaran” itu adalah dari Tuhan. Di usia ini ga boleh main-main lagi la untuk sebuah hubungan. Harus sudah dipikir matang-matang.

But, one thing for sure, that i really thank God for him (until this time). I don’t wanna lose him. 

The moment passed so fast. It’s been so long since that day. Many moments. Really grateful, God.

Friday night. I wanted to message him. But, this woman’s ego stopped it. But, God is really understand His child. Yesterday, it was such a heavy rain day. I was in Crystal of Knowledge and waited for the rain. And, ♫♫ the sweetest surprise (MLTR). It was him. He asked to meet up. Thank God.

From the distance, i saw him. I stopped for while. What’ll we talk about, that was in my mind.

  

..to be continued.. 

menikmati bait-Mu Tuhan..

Monday, 2014-03-24

Udah lama ga gereja di GBI.. kemarin itu kayaknya yang pertama di tahun ini..

Flash back dulu.. Berawal dari Sabtu malam.. awalnya janjian nonton film “Son of God” jam 10.. eh.. lama banget mulainya.. Beli snack la dan lain-lain, akhirnya mulai nonton jam 12 malam. The film is quite good. Filmnya tentang perjalanan Yesus Kristus. Dibandingkan dengan previous film ada beberapa hal yang mungkin beda, dan menurutku yah wajar la, karena memang penafsirannya beda-beda. Mungkin direktornya ga PA bareng kali ya, hahaha. Ada yang PAnya dari NIV, KJV, Constable Note, hahaha ngawur.. Tapi kata teman-teman, filmnya lumayan banyak menarik catatan sejarah gitu. Yah apapun itu tapi intinya ya tetap Yesus itu sendiri.. The movie ends with the last scene HE said “I’m coming soon”.

Nah.. akhirnya tidurnya jam 3 pagi dan memutuskan tidur di Paradiso. Bangun jam 6 dan pulang ke rumah. Awalnya udah berencana gereja sore dan udah tidur-tiduran karena ga ada rencana gereja pagi. Akhirnya, ntah kenapa hati ini tergerak untuk gereja bareng Armel. Awalnya motivasinya supaya ada teman. Sedikit kurenungkan lagi, akhirnya aku pun berniat gereja pagi di GBI bareng Armel. Aku kayak ngerasa “Kayaknya Tuhan mau nyampein sesuatu nih”. Akhirnya beberes in 15 minutes. Kalo ada maunya baru cepat gua..  Akhirnya gereja deh di GBI..

Udah lama ga ngerasa ibadah GBI karena beberapa alasan. Salah satunya ya ga dikasih orang tua, wajar la anak rantau Batak garis keras dibilang “kalo bisa nang ga usah gereja karismatik ya nang”. Hahaha.. ya gapapa laa mak, pak. Aku menghargai interdenominasi. Mungkin ada yang menikmati ibadah dengan liturgi seperti gereja Lutheran ada juga yang menikmati ibadah dengan sorak sorai seperti penyembahan Daud dengan tarian dan nyanyian J. Ya, apapun itu, intinya kan memuji Tuhan.. Nah.. ga tahu kenapa.. rindu aja menuliskan apa yang aku nikamati selama ibadah kemarin.

Ternyata tema tahunan GBI “Tahun dibukaNya Pintu-Pintu Mukjizat”. Wah.. tertohok banget.. Apalagi waktu dengar pesan dari Pak Ir. Niko Njotorahardjo berpesan tentang pengharapan. Berharap kepada Yesus. Dan lagi-lagi membukakan ayat malua ku >> Yesaya 40:31 tentang menanti-nantikan Tuhan. Waktu kita taat pada Tuhan ga ada yang sia-sia.

Aku juga menikmati lagu pujiannya. Beberapa lagu yang kuingat..

    

    Kekuatan di hidupku ku dapat dalam Yesus

Dia tak pernah tinggalkanku setia menopangku

Berseru, berharap dalam Yesus

Ajaib kau Tuhan, penuh kuasa

Sanggup pulihkan keadaanku

dalam tangan-Mu, s'luruh hidupku

tak akan goyah selamanya

    

    

    Engkau yang lebih tau cara untuk membuka jalanku

Engkau yang lebih mengertic cara untuk menolong hidupku

Reff:

Ku percaya Kau Tuhan yang tak pernah gagal

Menjadikanku lebih dari pemenang

Ku percaya Kau Tuhan yang tak pernah lalai

Menepati janji-janji-Mu

                      

Hanya dua di atas yang nemu karena rada-rada ingat kata-katanya.. Ada lagi tapi rada lupa karena jarang dengar juga lagu-lagunya.. Tapi inti lagunya itu itu “jadilah kuat, Allah perkasa”..

Mungkin karena memang lagi sesuai keadaan, jadi melo deh.. tapi ya diingatkan lagi la bahwa jika Tuhan yang akan membuka pintu tak ada satupun yang dapat menutupnya..

Ambilannya.. dari 2Petrus 3:11-12

The point is “..betapa suci dan salehnya saya harus hidup”

Diingatkan supaya senantiasa menyediakan waktu untuk penyembahan dan pujian, berdoa, membaca firmanNya setiap hari (ingat setiap hari katanya), bermisi, memberi persembahan dan persepuluhan (masih belajar untuk hal ini), dan senantiasa mencari tahu apa favor-Nya untuk kita..

..diakhiri lagu “MenyenangkanMu”..

Tuhan ku mau menyenangkanMU,

Tuhan bentuklah hati ini,

jadi bejana untuk hormatMU,

cemerlang bagai emas murni.

Tuhan kuserahkan hatiku,

semua kuberikan kepadaMU,

kuduskan hingga tulus selalu,

agar aku menyenangkanMU.

menyenangkanMu, senangkanMU,

hanya itu kerinduanku,

menyenangkanMU, senangkan hatiMU 

hanya itu kerinduanku.

If You're Not The One

 lagu kemaren waktu makan di ramen.. ^^

thank you for everything..

 Efesus 1:16

 “aku pun tidak berhenti mengucap syukur karena kamu. Dan aku selalu mengingat kamu dalam doaku,”

Hunter Hayes - "Wanted" (Official Video)

Dengar lagu ini waktu jadi song list di karokean yang dibuat salah satu teman.. awalnya disorakin ama teman-teman yang cowok "ai ende aha do i?" hahahaha.. yahh.. ternyata lagunya bagus..
^^

Christian Bautista & Sarah Geronimo - Please Be Careful With My Heart

please be careful with my heart.. ^^

When I Was Your Man - Bruno Mars (Boyce Avenue feat. Fifth Harmony cover...

"When I Was Your Man"
(Boyce Avenue feat. Fifth Harmony)
(originally by Bruno Mars)

[BA:]

Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now
 Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down
'Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

[BA:] It all just sounds like oooooh...
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
[FH:] That you should have bought me flowers
And held my hand
[BA:] Should have gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
[FH:] Take me to every party
'Cause all I wanted to do was dance
[BA:] Now my baby's dancing
But she's dancing with another man


[FH:]
Your pride, your ego, your needs, and your selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like me to walk out your life
Now you never, never get to clean up the mess you made, ohh...
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes

[FH:] It all just sounds like oooooh...
[BA:] Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
[FH:] That you should have bought me flowers
And held my hand
[BA:] Should have gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
[FH:] And take me to every party
'Cause all I wanted to do was dance
[BA:] Now my baby's dancing
But she's dancing with another man


[BA:] Although it hurts
I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
[FH:] Oh, I know it's probably much too late
To try and apologize for your mistakes
So I just want you to know

[FH:] I hope he buys me flowers
I hope he holds my hand
Gives me all his hours
When he has the chance
[BA:] Take you to every party
'Cause I remember how much you loved to dance
[FH:] Do all the things you should have done
When you were my man
Do all the things you should have done
When you were my man
[BA:] Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man

A gift from us

Congratulation for our dearest friends.. ^^

• Armelia Sitopu, S.E.
• Desy Sitorus, S. Si. 
• Griesch Berutu, S.T. 
• Maria Silitonga, S. Ked.
• Vebri Sinaga, S.Ked.
• Deny Kristyanto Sihombing, S.T.
• Abraham Lingga, S.T. 

Wah, it’s been almost eight years we are “together”.. hahaha.. and you guys suprised us.. All of ya have finished your study earlier.. J no more words, i just wanna say congratulation for all of you my dear ohana.. God bless your every step ahead.. and all the best for all of ya.. pray for us that we haven’t finished ours yet.. ☺☻ must be tough!! God lead..